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  • CAUTION!! Song lyrics ahead, you have been warned! (ACCTUAL POST AT BOTTOM..)

    FEELING THIS
    By (the best band ever) Blink-182

    I got no regret right now
    (I'm feeling this)
    The air is so cold and numb
    (I'm feeling this)
    Let me go in her room
    (I'm feeling this)
    I wanna take off her clothes
    (I'm feeling this)
    Show me the way to bed
    (I'm feeling this)
    Show me the way you move
    (I'm feeling this)
    Fucking is such a blur
    (I'm feeling this)
    I love all the things you do

    Fate fell short this time
    Your smile fades in the summer
    Place your hand in mine
    I'll leave when I wanna

    Where do we go from here
    Turn all the lights down now
    Smiling from ear to ear
    (I'm feeling this)
    Our breathing has got too loud
    (I'm feeling this)
    Show me the bedroom floor
    (I'm feeling this)
    Show me the bathroom mirror
    (I'm feeling this)
    We're taking this way too slow
    (I'm feeling this)
    Take me away from here
    (I'm feeling this)

    This place was never the same again
    After you came and went
    How can you say you meant anything different
    To anyone standing alone
    On the street with a cigarette
    On the first night we met
    Look to the past
    And remember her smile
    And maybe tonight
    I can breathe for awhile
    I'm not in the seat
    I think I'm fallin' asleep
    But then all that it means is
    I'll always be dreaming of you

    This is DEFINATELY mine and Jamie (Phelps)'s song, we sang this song together SO MANY TIMES!!
    Then theres this one, we sang this one on the way to Homecoming in 2003..Lol, I love that old truck! Lol

    Miss You

    Hello there
    The angel from my nightmare
    The shadow in the background of the morgue
    The unsuspecting victim
    Of darkness in the valley
    We can live like Jack and Sally
    If we want
    Where you can always find me
    And we'll have halloween on christmas
    And in the night we'll wish this never ends
    We'll wish this never ends

    I miss you
    (I miss you)

    Where are you?
    And I'm so sorry
    I cannot sleep
    I cannot dream tonight
    I need somebody and always
    This 6 string's darkness
    Comes creeping on so haunting every time
    And as I stared I counted
    The webs from all the spiders
    Catching things and eating their insides
    Like indecision to call you
    And hear your voice of treason
    Will you come home
    And stop this pain tonight?
    Stop this pain tonight

    Don't waste your time on me
    You're already the voice inside my head
    (I miss you)
    You're already the voice inside my head
    (I miss you)

    And who could forget this one, the song that almost made us cry!

    Broken
    By Seether

    I wanted you to know I love the way you laugh
    I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away
    I keep your photograph; I know it serves me well
    I wanna hold you high and steal your pain

    ‘Cause I’m broken when I’m open
    And I don’t feel like I am strong enough
    ‘Cause I’m broken when I’m lonesome
    And I don’t feel light when you’re gone away

    The worst is over now and we can breathe again
    I wanna hold you high, you steal my pain away
    There’s so much left to learn, and no one left to fight
    I wanna hold you high and steal your pain

    ‘Cause I’m broken when I’m open
    And I don’t feel like I am strong enough
    ‘Cause I’m broken when I’m lonesome
    And I don’t feel right when you’re gone away

    ‘Cause I’m broken when I’m open
    And I don’t feel like I am strong enough
    ‘Cause I’m broken when I’m lonesome
    And I don’t feel light when you’re gone away

    Well, i've reminisced enough, just one more song and i'll go,

    Minority

    I wanna be the minority
    I don't need your authority
    down with the moral majority
    'cause I wanna be the minority

    I pledge
    allegiance
    to the underworld
    one nation under dog there of which I stand alone
    a face in the crowd
    unsung against the mold
    without a doubt singled out the only way I know

    'cause I wanna be the minority
    I don't need your authority
    down with the moral majority
    'cause I wanna be the minority

    stepped out of line
    like a sheep runs from the herd
    marching out of time
    to my own beat now
    the only way I know

    one light
    one mind
    flashing in the dark
    blinded by the silence of a 1,000 broken hearts
    for crying out loud
    she screamed unto me
    a free for all fuck them all
    you are your own sight

    'cause I wanna be the minority
    I don't need your authority
    down with the moral majority
    'cause I wanna be the minority
    hey

    one light
    one mind
    flashing in the dark
    blinded by the silence of a 1,000 broken hearts
    for crying out loud
    she screamed unto me
    a free for all fuck them all
    you are your own sight

    'cause I wanna be the minority
    I don't need your authority
    down with the moral majority
    'cause I wanna be the minority
    (I wanna be) the Minority
    (I wanna be) the Minority
    (I wanna be) the Minority
    (I wanna be) the Minority

    If you don't know who that is, You should be slapped...

    As always,
    Much Love
    Lauren

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    "Are we alone can you feel it so lost in this illusion.."

    humn...well, due to a lack of better things to do, i'm updating again, this time though, those are the only lyrics..Have you ever just lain out in your yard and stared at the stars? I was sitting in my back yard earlier and started to think, you know, in the grand scale of it all..My life is nothing, a whisp of smoke in a never blaze..It's up to you basically to keep your whisp in the loop for as long as possible. And, I haven't done anything to merit my whisp even being there..I'm a useless slacker, sure I've tried to figure out what to do, but in the end I always end up in the same place, on my back in a patch of grass somewhere, looking up at the sky and trying to count the stars..You know..

    I mean..Well..nevermind..I think i've been at home too long, I haven't done jack crap 90% of the summer..i've ridden and gone to Scout camp, but like gone out and bummed around on the river walk, or gone to the movies? Nada..mabey once or twice with people, other times, i've either gone alone...Or not at all. Mabey I should become a hermit and move to like Vermont..Or Canada..Canada's good..Well...jeesh..i'm getting depressed again..shit..thats the last thing I wanted..I've been having some serious bottom feeder sensations..Ya know? Have ya ever felt so absolutely amazing and then, just felt like everythings just falling apart around you? Emo to say I know, but getting it all out on Xanga feels a shitload better. . . I'm not the most popular individual, I never have been and I like it fine that way, but not being invited to do anything because you're not 'right' for this outing with my 'other' friends..Is fucking sickening..I'm sure that some of you know what i'm talking about, but Blink said it best.. ARE WE ALONE CAN YOU FEEL IT, SO LOST IN THIS ILLUSION.. Because thats all we see now a days, the ILLUSION, that our minds want us to see..

    Two of the most amazing bands ever..Green Day and Blink 182, i've been watching Music Video's of theirs for the last three days..I think thats a bad thing..I haven't volentarily left my house in like 3 days.. And my nightmares are getting worse..I woke up crying again last night..I don't know how much more of these stupid nightmares I can take..Mabey theres not enough organic foods in my diet..mabey it's too much ramen..I don't know..Mabey I should tell someone about them..Mabey that would help..Probably not though..good greif..mabey I should get outside? It's been happening for almost a week now, it started the day I had my first depression sink in like four or five months. Mabey it's just trying to play catchup? Well, i've gotta go, three paragraphs and lots of lyrical insite should satiate you..Comment me..I know that you read this!

    As always,
    Much love,
    Lauren

  • SEVEN SILVER SWANS SWAM SILENTLY SEAWARD!

    Okay..It's Tuesday morning..right? No wait it's Wednesday afternoon..And i'm still in my pajamas..that's the best way to be! Lol, I love lazy days..School starts in 2 weeks..Misery and dispare are being served up in huge helpings..
    The bright side, i'm getting pimpin legwarmers for school! hee hee.. Thats something i'm excited about..i've done laundry for the last three days to get them! But they're mine now!
    hee hee, my next endevor..tennis shoes.. New sketchers should be easy enough, a few more chores and there we go! Heehee..well this entry was pointless. So i'm gonna go clean and do laundry!
    TOODLES!

    as always,
    Much love,
    Lauren

  • Random update...

    I could have died today...It was insane...I was driving home on 151 and I was coming around a blind turn and all ot the sudden fifteen feet in front of me theres this HUGE jacked up truck RIGHT THERE! So I gasped and slammed on my horn, I couldn't move my legs, I was completely paralzed with fear...So yeah..needless to say...I was ticked off to no end that someone was like all over my side of the road and yeah...no reason for that...but I'm gonna go now...I'm on a noodle spree... Hee hee..

    Okay....Random stupid thing I noticed...
    Sugar Daddy...Guy
    Hunney Mummy! -Girl LOL!!!!

    well, i'm out now...

    As always,
    Much love,
    Lauren

  • Humn..Far too long..

    Sheesh...I've been so out of it lately..I have been neglecting my poor Xanga..Alas...Well, school's nearly here..I'm a senior..How awsome is that huh? I'm gonna go to a CHEVELLE CONCERT IN TUPELO!!!! YEAH!!! I'm EXCITED! I just have to clean my room. So it's gonna be WAY fun! Hee hee. I can't wait, I'm gonna be in a REAL Moshpit for the Slipknot part of it! Hee hee, I can't wait till End of August..It's gonna be awsome...

    I can't wait untill school starts, i've got the most AWSOME school stuff. I've got a REALLY great backpack and a BENTO! Hee hee..I'm going completely crazy..I can't believe that i'm saying that..I acctually want to go to school...Hee hee...I'm gonna go now though, I've got to admit..I can't say why..OH! WAIT I REMEMBERED! I just finnished updating Final Fantast XI! Lol Well i'm Gone!

    As always,
    Much Love,
    Lauren

  • On the subject of fish..

    You know...There are two guys that usually come and clean my daddys salt water fishtank..Both of them are quite good looking..And you know the fabulous thing..they ALWAYS seem to show up while i'm still in my pajamas with bed head..Yes..Matt knows them both..One of them I knew from when we were little. . But the other one, not so much..He's got great hair though..Hee hee..Well, I think i'm going to go and get dressed..I feel like an ass..heh. yeeah..heh..So..Comment me..Please? I'm lonley...

    As always,
    Much love,
    Lauren

    EDIT
    Okay, so, as some of you know, Tuesday of last week, I partially tore my MCL...Which..By the way, is a load of crap..I hated not being able to move..so I was stuck on my couch for a day and a half while they deduce that there was fluid in my knee and I had bone contusions and all sorts of crap..I couldn't ride..HOWEVER! As long as I was careful, they said I could go back to work at the Camp. So I did..and I had to use a cane..
    The week continues as normal, except, i'm slightly crippled..
    Today, my mother agrees to let me jump again after a successful lesson last night on flat work. She and my dad argued over weather ot not to allow me to jump. And in the end my mother and I won..So Daddy starts to preach to me about being permanantly disabled. I had also heard about that on Sunday..So now I'm wondering whoelse is going to give me a hard time..Ahh the disfunction of it all..

    Lauren

  • Doncha just wish life was more like a movie?

    I'm sitting here watchin SleepOver..My goal for next year, my last year of highschool..Is to have a kickin' sleepover with a scavanger hunt like that..In fact..It's going to happen, I'm going to make it happen. And it's going to be amazing..Stealing random guys boxers..Other crazy stuff..hee hee! I'm so incredibly spazzy now..Ha..Well anywho..My perfect holiday plans are ruined..I can't have my Haloween party..It's not going to happen, once again because of a Horseshow..How depressing..So, i'm having a Christmas party instead..And, THERE WILL BE DANCING! hee hee, sinful isn't it? Well, since i'm finnished with my pitiful rant.. I'll change subjects..

    I LOVE the new AFI cd! Hee hee, I stole it from Jamie, and I accidentally *COUGHCOUGH* stole her phone. Yeah, also, Matt broke his arm..So..Yeah, OH! Momma and I are going to drive up to Missouri some time soon! I'm excited. Frankie's home. He's laving for Iraq in November..And yes, i'll be crying. I miss him so much.. And when he heads over..I'm not going to see him for God only knows how long... So yeah, my 18th birthday's going to be overshadowed by fear. So I'm not having a party..I might go to a movie or something with Jamie, but thats about it. I'll of corse have the traditional Family dinner ect...But theres not really too much to it...It's just another birthday. Now, Frankie had a KICK ASS birthday, Jamie too, but I'm not like them. Well i've gotta run, I need to give Jamie her Cell Phone back and her CD. Haha, Toodles

    As always,
    Much Love,
    Lauren

  • This has been a...pardon my french..holy hell kinda week..

    I've torn a ligament in my left leg.....I can't ride and i've been crying for the last two and a half hours..I'm SUPER pissed off right now..I'm so glad I have friends that love me..A BIG thanks to Jamie Phelps for offering to wheel me around in a wheelchair this weekend. I can't friggen walk..I'm CRAZY...The worst part of it all though was how it happened..I slipped in front of the door to the toilet...(You know on Lakeside) For those of you that have seen ICC...So i'm pissed off like a mongoose in heat..I Apologize for the intense swearing as of late..I've just been crazy angry..I can't go back to camp tonight..So..yeah..I'm mad...I'm missing movie night..AND here's the kicker..I've left poor Willow all alone with the CRAZY effing wild animals...Shit...I've gotta go..i'm crazy pissed off..Call me..for God sakes comment me..I need something to fill the worthless exsistance that is my gimmped out life...

    As always,
    much love..
    Lauren

  • Oh my GOSH!

    This last week was one of the best weeks of my life! HOLY COW! I'm SOO excited.. I'm on a complete CAMP high! All the fresh air and the AMAZING councilers and campers. I can never be any happier than I am at camp. Because at camp, you can be EXACTLY who you want to be. And that's how I am. I don't know ANYONE outside of camp..well not really..Besdies Itchy,,AKA Amy Hodges..hee hee..BUT! I am going for my lifegaurd certification! I've been studying hard.. I know I have untill next spring.. But it's better to get it started now! OH MY GOSH! I'm also going BACK TO CAMP NEXT WEEK! Since i'm officially a counciler now! I'm going to be VOLENTEERING! at Indian Creek next week! HEE HEE! OH MY GOSH! I'm on such a high right now! I can't wait to go back! hee hee..I mean HONESTLY! I NEVER expected that when I asked If I could come back next week they'd acctually LET ME! HOLY CRAP! I can't even begin to process this kinda thing..Jeesh...I've gotta go.. I'm starving..And there's mashed potatoes waiting for me in the kitchen! Hee hee!

    As always,
    Much love,
    Lauren Elise O'Neal (A.K.A. STAR)

    P.S.THANK YOU LINDSAY! She is the ONLY Person that loves me enough to comment me..even though I've been GONE! hee hee!
    Lauren

  • THIS IS THE ULTIMATE SHOWDOWN!

    Not feeling so rested, so i'm just posting a little bit..
    Got back from the show last night, my homie Ivy rode back with me and my mom, we watched Spicy Tante and AMV Hell 3 Hee hee. it's amazing..I've been humming the Ultimate showdown all day. .GO MR.ROGERS! Haha! Well, i'm out like a light! Comment me!

    ion |||||||||||| 46%
    Stability |||||||||||||| 56%
    Orderliness |||| 20%
    Accommodation |||||||||||| 43%
    Interdependence |||||||||||||| 56%
    Intellectual |||||||||| 36%
    Mystical |||||||||||||| 56%
    Artistic |||||||||||||||||| 76%
    Religious |||||||||||||||| 63%
    Hedonism || 10%
    Materialism || 10%
    Narcissism |||||||||| 36%
    Adventurousness |||||||||||| 43%
    Work ethic |||| 16%
    Self absorbed |||||| 30%
    Conflict seeking |||||||||||||| 56%
    Need to dominate |||||||||||||| 56%
    Romantic |||||||||||||||| 70%
    Avoidant |||||| 23%
    Anti-authority |||||||||||| 50%
    Wealth |||||||||||||||| 63%
    Dependency |||||||||| 36%
    Change averse |||||| 23%
    Cautiousness |||||||||||||||| 70%
    Individuality |||||||||||||||||| 76%
    Sexuality |||||||||| 36%
    Peter pan complex |||||||||||||||| 70%
    Physical security |||||||||||||||||||| 83%
    Physical fitness |||| 17%
    Histrionic |||||| 23%
    Paranoia |||| 16%
    Vanity |||||| 30%
    Hypersensitivity |||||||||| 36%
    Female cliche |||||||||||||||||||| 90%

    I took this test off of Jada's site..

  • Sunday, two days till I'm gone again

    Has anyone ever had the most amazing dream and completely fogotten all but bits and pieces of it by the morning? That happened to me..It's so depressing. .But anyway, last week was camp. Or, at least last week was staff training. It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be, especially since all of the councilers and CITs are ADD ADHD...Lol SOO! I leave for Foalsom on Tuesday, I'm SOOO Excited, it's going to be amazing. We're going down a day early though so it should be prety awsome. I thin me and Georgie Porgie are gonna do REALLY well, it's I think that If we ride hard enough that we can win. I just have to keep it together on the lines. . (I know that you probably don't understand that...heh) Well, anyways, i'm gonna go and wash some clothes for the trip. SOO Comment me!

    As always,
    Much Love.
    Lauren